Friday, March 21, 2008

Then & Now

Have been thinking about my previous life and the events that ultimately propelled me forward alone. For almost 30 years this could have been my life song, until 2006.



Now, after two years, if I had a life this would probably be the song I'd choose. It's from COMPANY and ironically, it was cut from the original, but put back in for the (wait for it) 2006 revival. This is a video from that revival sung by Bobby (Raul Esparza) which I was privileged to see in November 2006. No coincidence there. Of course I cried at the time, but now I sing the song regularly if only as a reminder of my vulnerability. My only regret is that trusting anyone will be difficult from here on.



So, there it is. I'm in a relatively good place now, though I occasionally have disturbing dreams. If I ever do get involved with someone, caution is the call of the times.

And so it goes.
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2 comments:

  1. Wonderful comparisons.

    But, I think you ought to include "Being Alive" to the mix. After all, isn't that what we all want in the end?
    Thanks for this, now I will go and do some deep thinking about my life songs before and after he departed two years ago because I truly believe that music speaks the words we cannot.

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  2. When I read and watched the videos, I thought the same thing as above.
    BEING ALIVE
    It's a gay national anthem for getting on and beyond the shit that's thrown at us.

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