Friday, November 16, 2012

Revealed Secrets

A few days ago I posted a Rumi quote that can be found HERE. A comment was left by Dr. Spo (the dear) asking "what have you learned?"

I have always been a morning person. I've enjoyed watching the sun rise as far back as I can remember.

As a kid living one block from Lake Pontchartrain many a morning found me sitting on the seawall watching the sun come up over the eastern shore.  The morning air was fresh and helped to clear my mind of too many thoughts and worries. No, I won't go into the sordid story that was my childhood. Let's just say, I had to grow up damned quick - and leave it at that.

In NYC, I would ride my bike to the Battery, or East river when I needed my fix of fresh air, sunlight and a clear head.

Now, I live near the Atlantic Ocean, and whenever I have a troubling night or this new life offers particularly disturbing challenges, financial or otherwise, I make my way to the boardwalk in the dark, sit on a bench facing the ocean and await the sunrise.

Mostly it's relaxing, but at times my head clears enough that I find solutions (sometimes difficult ones) to a challenge or situation. I walk back to the apartment with a lighter heart, take a shower, play some music, and get ready for the work day. Refreshed.

When I get to work, a different person is on display. One that hasn't a care in the world, laughs and jokes constantly.  Enjoying the interaction with co-workers and those I serve and entertain.  That person happens to be me, too, so it's all good. The environment lifts my spirits and they remain high for the rest of the day/night.  I never drag my personal business to the work place. My personal life is never discussed.  It's easier that way.

There is no one to confide in, to share intimate thoughts, I'm on my own. The last 6 years have been a roller coaster ride of health issues, and financial woes and it isn't always easy to pull out of a deep funk.  Those quiet moments at dawn really help.

Yes, I know.  I really, really need a holiday.

And so it goes.
*

5 comments:

  1. Barb and I were just talking about you yesterday and how good you are at your job. She's found a new favorite restaurant to go along with yours and Villa Sorrento. It's the Crown and Rose in Lewes in the Hotel Rodney. She went there again today! Her birthday is December 9th. I think I'll take her down to your restaurant to see your smiling face.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Yes, you do need a holiday. I'm filling in for my co-workers Robert who is taking off to the Outer Banks Thanksgiving weekend. It's five days in a row for me (which is a killer) but I'm glad I could fill in for him so he can get away. Everyone needs a change of scenery.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Your own version of Centering Prayer?

    ReplyDelete
  4. the past two days have seen incredible sunrise/sunset color palettes here. it is very awe-inspiring and calming to view such a scene.

    good for you to have found a quiet moment amidst the life madness.

    my best thoughts come when I am knitting; the repetition of moving yarn and needles is better than any drug. and no nasty drug side effects either!

    smooches!

    ReplyDelete
  5. @Will: I've never thought of it that way. I've been doing this since well before the phrase "centering prayer" was coined.

    Good to hear from you.

    ReplyDelete

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...