On New Year’s Day, after work, I answered an ad for a job that appeared in last Tuesday’s paper. It was one of those “apply in person” ads.Upon arrival I was told they weren’t seeing applicants and to return “another time” which I found a rather odd phrase, especially since this is a new and very upscale Hotel.
Well, over the top, IMHO, for a beach resort hotel that’s located almost 4 blocks from the Atlantic, and not beach front on the Riviera, if you get my drift.
Anyway, I was back on the scene Friday morning facing the same queen as the day before. However, this time I was told that the position was already filled and they would be interviewing again in March.
Puzzled, I asked why he didn't tell me that yesterday. He shrugged, half-smiled and I was dismissed as he disappeared beneath the front desk and shuffled papers. I said (rather loudly) "Thanks, anyway" and left.
I don’t know what that was all about, but as I drove back to the apartment I noticed that the whole episode happened without the nervousness and tension usually experienced when anticipating an interview. I wasn’t even pissed that I was so rudely dissed out of hand. If fact, after I sent an email to the friend who gave me the heads-up on the ad, I didn’t give it a thought as I prepared dinner then watched a DVD before turning in.
Oddly enough I feel very much at peace again today. I slept in later than usual and had a quiet breakfast before realizing that my whole being was uncharacteristically calm. There were no ‘must do’ items on my gay agenda today, so this was a perfect day for a bit of introspection, addressing nothing in particular; allowing everything to wash over me.
With the sun out and the wind calmed, a vigorous walk on the boardwalk was the proper ending to the afternoon.
I wonder if this is part of a new me for the New Year, or if this emotional calm is simply paying a holiday visit only to leave Monday morning before breakfast. I’ve never liked one-weekend stands.
Note: the poster was received from a friend in NOLA and I had no idea what else to do with it. Thanks DT, I think.
And so it goes.
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I know I need to return to that attitude of calm as an apporach to all things in life. I hope you hold fast to it and model it for us all.
ReplyDeleteI have watched you evolve from a quivering, puzzled, mass of insecurities and self-doubt to a strong, self assured and confident man over the last year since your life was turned upside down back in the summer of 2006. This is not a temporary state you are in, this is the new you. A song comes to mind. Ummmm, I can't place the name but it was sung by Helen Reddy. You can handle anything now. Getting dissed by a pompous queen is nothing to you. A mere fly swat. You have arrived. You are strong.
ReplyDeleteIt shows what they think of their customers too. Not interested but only in for the money.
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